Buddy has a Visitor

It was very warm today. But I still went for my morning walk. When i got back I let Buddy out on the patio. He had a visitor. Isn't she pretty? I don't know where she lives. She's to afraid of me to let me pet her. But Buddy and her touched noses and hung out together for a while.

I hope everyone has a good and safe Mother's Day weekend!

Always with great color!

Walk Alone

Hey Kitty why are you snoozing. I'm up and out for my walk. But geesh you need some major work done to your fro. What a hairball.
So today I'm off on my morning walk by myself. Yeah I just had to keep walkin. But it was kind of boring. No one to complain to. I wonder if Buddy would like a leash?? Nah.....

Work today. It's so beautiful outside. I wonder if anyone will be coming in to shop. Hope so. We have been way to slow. Maybe people will be getting ready for Cinco De Mayo or this weekend in the desert.

Happy Cinco De Mayo everyone!! Keep hot as a chili pepper! And always with great color.

I could just eat a bug!

It's another lovely day. I decided to make peanut butter toast and eat outside at the bistro table before I walked. Buddy jumped up on a bar stool and thought he would help me. Do cat's like peanut butter??

Ok then I had to take a pic of my toast. lol

The birds are all making nests and I could hear them peeping in the bottle brush bushes. They were not to happy about Buddy being outside on the patio. Even though he wouldn't know what to do with a bird. They are Mockingbirds. Noisy suckers. They were all around and watching Buddy. Ready to dive bomb him if he made a move.

So my nice relaxing breakfast , wasn't so relaxing. lol

The night before was warm and my neighbor's and I were outside talking. I love the patio on warm nights. The neighborhood kids were running all around. My next door neighbor is raising her grandson. He is autistic. He was jumping into the rosebush planters. We yelled to him that he was going to get scratched. His grandmother said. "Tell him there are spiders in there and he will get out". Then she told us a story of how he used to eat flies. Gag! She said he would catch them and pop them in his mouth before she could stop him.

This got me thinking of all the silly things my kids would do when they were young. Every time we would go to the lake or beach. My son when he was about two would pour sand in his ears. lol My sister Carol liked to eat mike bone dog biskets. And my sister Heidi put a bead up her nose and had to be taken to the hospital to get it out. My daughter Nicole put money in her mouth. I think she swallowed a penny once. So eating bugs wasn't so weird.

Yum now back to my peanut butter toast. My neighbor Wally brought me over the best strawberry to eat with it. It was so pretty and perfect. Now time to walk.

Have a great day. And always with great color!

Happy Day!

It's a happy day!! Alexis's (my sister's granddaughter) cat came back home. We all prayed and yeah she showed up this morning. It's really sunny and warm today. Look at this rose bloom. It's as big as Buddy's head!!

I get to go into work at noon. So I'm just letting everyone know that I'm fine this morning. Even at my age I still have times of the month. You know when your super emotional. And I feel great getting a few things off my chest.

My sister is the best. And she remembers many times in our childhood that were good. I do think that meal times were a special time in our family. After all you had to look at the beautiful colors on your plate. lol

I do want to start exercising more. Maybe go for walks on the weekends at the local parks. They have some trails set up.

Then I was looking at Buddy last night. He was giving me the lovey eyes. It does feel good to feel loved. Even if it's just for feeding the cat. hahaha

So enjoy your day. Good things are right around the corner. And always with good color!

Man I need a haircut!

Abandonment

Yes it's late. But I just watched Ruby and they were talking about eating issues. Why we over eat. Going way back to when we were children. It really got me thinking again about my life. Right now I eat and weigh more than I ever have. It's very upsetting.
My sister and I talked once about how abandonment has happened in our lives. It's difficult and sad to think about. But I see now that it is a issue with me and has been for a long time.
My parents were divorced when I was only seven years old. My only memories of them together are of them fighting. Me standing between them screaming to stop. Then Mom packed us kids up and took us to our Grandparents. Those were great memories. But I always felt like my father abandoned us girls. He showed very little interest in our lives as we grew into adulthood. My Mother was my everything.
When I was Twenty years old I married a cute guy. I was in love. He was a womanizer and Alcoholic. He left me and my daughter to go party. Another case of abandonment. But I had such faith in marriage I had to keep seeking it. Maybe because my sister and her husband and my Mom and my stepfather had strong marriages.
Unfortunately I always picked the wrong men. I honestly tired to make it work. But after a while you leave because you don't want to feel them abandon you. I can't fully commit to a man anymore. And I hate it.
Then I had to become the parent to my parents. Being with them as their health failed and they passed away. Within months of each other. Then I lost a couple good friends. Then a niece. Loss is hard. Grief is a process that we don't always allow ourselves to have. We have a feeling that we have to be strong for the family. But dang it, I'm not. I truly miss my family.
Now I have lived alone with my son for years. He's a adult and has his own life. I'm not really happy where I'm at. But I'm scared to date. Scared to share myself, my time, my home, my everything with someone. Because they will leave. So I don't even try to meet anyone.
My greatest pleasure is eating. UGH! I needed to write this down so that I will stop next time I start to think of food and figure out what's bugging me. I need to figure out other things to do to make myself feel good about myself again. Any suggestions?
I would like to get more active in my church. I would like to get a better job that fulfills me and helps me to feel good about myself. Guess I don't really feel anyone would want me right now. I would like to have self control. And I would like to just enjoy life more. I honestly try.
And I have a great family now. But people do get busy with life. And I'm in a rut.
Ok, I have vented. Let's all dig deep into our issues (which we all have). And realize it's not all our faults. We need to move on. Maybe me looking back was a good thing. Cause I usually try to never look back. But God has a way of having things pop up that remind us. We have unresolved issues and he's here for us. Even things like watching Ruby.
God bless you all.

I'll be Home soon

Mama where are you going??

It's a gorgous Sunday morning. The sun is breaking through the clouds. And I'm off for my daily morning walk with my neighbor Wally. Buddy didn't seem to want me to leave. As he peeked out the curtains I took off with my camera in hand. All the flowers in the neighborhood have been so pretty. I wanted to catch them on film. First I took a picture of my own roses out front of my place. They are very old and don't have much smell at all. But after I wacked them down to nothing this winter. I'm shocked how pretty they have come back.

Ok I'm off on my walk. The cool crisp air is wonderful. As we get about half way on our walk. Which is always stopped by petting dogs and cats. I see a beautful Lilac bush. Wally steps up to smell the flower clusters. And as I turn on my camera again he rushes away. Anyways I got a great picture of the flowers. My neighbors might think I'm nuts. But tough cookies. I don't care. lol

After arriving back at home we always sit at the bestro table and talk for a few minutes before starting our day. Here is miniture rose that my son's girlfriend Melanie gave to me. It's blooming and so happy. I guess if it's alive and blooming you can say it's happy!! But where is Buddy?

After coming back inside I see him still looking out the window for me. He loves being out on the patio. But I returned outside to water and then he ran back inside. Crazy cat. Gotta love him.

Remember to enjoy the small things in life. Even a bloom of a flower and love from your cat. And always with great color!

Just call me Buddy

Good Saturday Morning!! As you can see my cat Satan is still trying to sleep. Putting his arm over his face. But he is still peeking out with one evil eye. My son named this crazy cat. But I hate calling him Satan. So I call him Buddy. Because he is my Buddy. Durrrr.

It's a beautiful sunny but windy day here in Southern California. Allergies are up and so are everyones colds. I woke up kind of sad about life. Until I read my morning reading. God has a plan for us all. Such a great thought. Even though the devil trys to come in and change things, we that are full of God's hope and blessings just need to remember. God has a plan for us!

So today I think I will relax and maybe go to the store, Fresh and Easy! In the evening I plan on joining my sister at church. It's really nice on Saturday evenings to go. In the mean time, lets all try and relax like Buddy and remember to look for colors!!